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The Human Mind: Self Esteem.

I think one of the most bizarre things in the world is how people view themselves in relation to each other. How they see, in their minds’ eye, their level of interaction with each other, and more importantly, how they receive and utilize input from others to determine their own self worth.

A person will desperately attempt to hear a single phrase that they most want, and attempt to protect themselves against the things they don’t like. This is rational, acceptable, and perfectly normal. After all, you can see how destructive it is to walk on shards of broken glass while barefoot.

However, at the exact same time, over and over again, I see this interesting and yet disturbing trend. A person will want to hear something true, positive, and uplifting. When receiving this statement, they immediately hold it up to the most intense scrutiny possible, trying to find the crack, the flaw. They immediately look to disprove this statement. With more negative statements, these are allowed to pass on by, accepted without a qualm in the world. No scrutiny. No dissection, no analysis. It is accepted as natural and right. What, exactly, is the drive behind this?

We look at people in groups, and we automatically view a sort of social ladder. It’s the Alpha dog syndrome. Who is the Alpha? If they are the Alpha, where do you fit in? There is a kind of person I have seen over and over again. This person places himself on the bottom, regardless of any situational advantages, skills, or abilities. I also see people who see their worth, and understand that they have a specific position in the pack, a rung on the ladder. Not too low, of course, but then again, not too high. Finally, there are people that simply assume the Alpha dog position. Of course, I’m attempting to speak in the most generic, and nonspecific terms.

Is it so wrong to accept good things and deflect the negative? When you wake up in the morning, who is it that you see in the mirror? Is it yourself? Your peers’ expectations of you? The negative pressures they place on you? Is it the positive pressure you place on yourself? Do you look at yourself and feel proud as a person, a working professional, a student, a child, an adult?

Nestor Dissertation, Rant

What is Confidence? It’s a magic word that everyone uses today, typically handed down from one person to another. “You just need confidence, man.”

You wanna believe in a power word, go right ahead. But if you really and truly want to be confident, then you must know certain details that no one ever tells you.

1. Confidence comes from self-assuredness. What’s that? A full knowledge of your capabilities as a person. Skills, talents, learned traits, habits, nuances, fragments of yourself that you use on an everyday basis. Here’s a simplistic analogy: You know how to turn on a light switch. Therefore, you can say on a reasonable and logical level that you are confident that if you flip a lightswitch from off to on, that the light will in fact, come on. Why? Because it’s a rational assumption, based on logic and previous experience. Can you pass an interview? Yes. You know yourself. You know that they will ask you a certain set of questions. You know how you can answer them. Suddenly, you realize that interviews are easy, simply because it’s a level of their expectation vs. your knowledgeability. If I interviewed you for the job of turning on a lightswitch, would you pass? If I interviewed you for a job that required you to follow a simple list of instructions on a daily basis, could you do it? Of course you could. My college professor told me that the most complex situations can be boiled down to a series of ‘yes’ or ‘no’ questions, and you know what? He’s completely true. The idea that ‘it’s too hard’ is laughable. Can you talk to a girl you’re attracted to? Yes. Exactly the same principle. You talk to a girl the same way you would talk to a guy. There is completely no difference. You know how to talk to a guy, ergo, you know how to talk to a girl. What do you talk about? Whatever you want.

2. Skills, abilities, traits, and habits are learned. Do you want to know how to work on cars? Learn. That requires patience, dedication, and a willingness to to learn. Do you know how to learn? admit that you can fail. This is a beginner’s step. Do research. Ask questions, read books, and work with other people that have worked on cars before. Work on cars yourself. It keeps coming back to finding sources of information and then applying it yourself so that you gain experience. You can learn any skill, any trade, any ability, it merely takes dedication and work.

3. I liken the mind to a workshop. There are your tools, reference guides, a workbench, and a light (or several) to see by, and scrutinize the situation. A situation pops up, and you look at it. examine it. turn it over. Check your references to see if you’ve encountered it before. open it up and check to see if even if you haven’t encountered it before, it holds any familiar elements. Once you have analyzed the situation, act.

4. You ever see someone successful at something? Talking to girls, making money, someone who has been married for more than ten years? what seperates them from you? What (or where) is the difference between them and yourself? I can tell you in one word: Action. I reference back to the lightswitch analogy: If you want light on in a room, what do you do? Do you complain that your next door neighbor is so much better/ cooler than you because he has light? No. You get off your ass and turn on the light. You act. The same thing can be applied to getting the girl: If you want her, get her. Otherwise someone else will.

Having skills, knowing you have them, knowing how to apply them, and to what extent, and having the ability and desire to act upon them: This is the basis of confidence in yourself, and through that, succeeding at whatever it is you wish to do. This is the barest of skeletons. From this point forward, I offer absolutely no fleshing out of this skeleton; rather I leave it to you to flesh it out yourself with your own experiences. any desires you have for any object, goal, or whim lay within your grasp now. Don’t drop it.

Nestor Dissertation, Rant

Needs more Triela~ hahahaha.

But seriously. Gunslinger Girl season 2 is coming. Coming very very soon. As in the next couple days. And that means more Triela.

First post since the death of ebolacola.org. I tellya, my main man, my homeboy, my brotha from anotha motha, Korosu came through in the fucking clutch. He’s like, “I’m sorry Nestor. Our host blows shriveled donkey cocks. We lost everything when their server ate it. Please don’t chew on my butthole.” and then he goes to bat, slaps a few cockmasters around like George Zimmer, Founder and CEO of the Men’s Warehouse, and here we are again. I lost my Spider Jerusalem theme, too. I am sadcat sad. I’ve got some ideas about that, however, and expect things to really go OFF THE HOOK when I start trying to make my own theme. Of course, I’m not going to try that just yet. Korosu has promised either a relatively functional Spider theme, or thirteen nubile virgins. I GUARANTEE IT. Maybe I can help him make it? Hahaha~

Anyway. First post, Gunslinger Girls, the rebirth of Nestor’s Cola.

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