I hate Humanity~
I fell in love with humanity in Junior High. Well, maybe not love. but enamored. I was interested in things, magical words like group dynamics and hive mind and things like that. I started reading up on sociology. That stuff is neat! Values, mores, traditions, trends, fads, nilhism, the whole gamut. It was like taking the society as a whole and opening it’s guts to see whats going on behind the scenes. Politics, leaders, evironmental factors, nature vs nurture, the whole thing.
Suddenly it started becoming suspiciously familiar. if the collective movements of society could be defined and boiled down, rendered into factual data and specific unassailable truths, could not the same thing be said for individuals? I took psychology in High school, one class. My friend Chad took me up to the community college and I bought a plethora of psychology books. I started reading.
At the time, I couldn’t wrap my brain around it, but as I grew, more and more, i learned. I spend hours, days, at the airport, at the mall, anywhere people gathered in groups and I watched them. body language, individuals in groups, interacting. movements, conversations, expressions, emotions, all that. I read and I read, and it started dawning on me that what held true for the group held true for the individual.
People’s lives, actions, emotive responses, backgrounds, all that stems from a list of predefined and categorized variables. understanding society, their role, their upbringing, family variables, all that, these things all are set things. I stopped listening. Humanity is wonderful and unique. we are not predictable. But it’s true. We all come from the same waste, we all take a little from column A and some from B and dashes of C, D, and E.
Do you know how crushing that is? That psychology isn’t the study of “how to help sick people” it’s merely a matter of sifting through the dross until you find a set of key variables that match, stringing them together on a chain, then determining the next logical step. Like Chemistry when you balance an equation, it’s simply adding and removing variables until the equation is sound.
So, what have we learned? That everyone comes from categories. Well, if that’s true, and there are categories, wouldn’t that be too easy to exploit? Of course. people are emminently exploitable. Look for the right ‘hook’ and you can dance them to your tune any damn time and any damned way you want. figure out their categories, and use it to your advantage. I was, am, and will be a terrible person, because once you see how it works, you can’t unsee it. You can discern motives and wants, desires and dreams, and you sit next to someone, hear them mention something and know exactly how to turn them to your side.
It’s sad. Really. Terribly sad.